2/20/2024 0 Comments Neighbours back from hell android"No, I think she’s lying low for now," said Rebecca. I reached out to a couple of mutual friends and asked if they’d heard from Ellie. Again, I made sense of this, thinking she must be flat out, and had her phone on aeroplane mode. I texted her asking if she could call me back, but my text wasn’t delivered. But two days went by, and I hadn’t heard from her. I thought she must be busy with her own kids, and she’d call me back later. The first person I reach out to was Ellie but she didn’t pick up my call. But I knew I had to try to be strong and I just couldn’t do it. My daughters were with me and when my 10-year-old started to cry and say, "I just want to be with Dad," I lost the plot. The day after the funeral was a very low point in my life. When I thanked her for all she’d done for the funeral and for supporting me, she said, "Please don’t thank me, I know you’d do the same for me." But she was clearly full of shit and the next couple of weeks made me realise what was going on. So I knew all of that – but there was no way Ellie would abandon me. Post continues after video.Ī friend who’d lost her partner a few years ago warned me that for many people, family and friends who surround you leading up to the funeral, are very quick to get on with their lives and leave you behind. Afterwards, people were telling me what a beautiful tribute it was for Ben–and I didn’t even write it! But I was such an emotional wreck, I could barely sit straight let alone read anything aloud in the service, so she read that for me. She cleaned my house and, most importantly, she took over my mobile phone – answering calls and texts for me because there was no way I could talk to anybody.Įllie organised Ben’s funeral – from booking the church, ordering food and drinks for the wake at the local surf club, to choosing flowers for the service and even writing the eulogy for me.Įllie also wrote a special letter from myself to Ben – I gave it the okay and it was beautifully written. She made nutritious food for me at a time when eating was the last thing on my mind. So strong, very wise and so loving – she was all I needed during my lowest time. I have no memory of this, but I do remember her holding me later and letting me cry into her hair. I was on the floor, lying in the foetal position and crying uncontrollably. You will never see him again." One night Ellie came into my room saying she heard me screaming. I’d reach out to touch him and then feel absolutely gutted when reality hit me and I’d tell myself, "He’s dead. I was a zombie I couldn’t sleep and when I did drift off, I felt like my grief made me hallucinate that Ben was beside me. I sent the girls to my parents and my best friend Ellie moved in with me. While many of my friends whinged about their "useless" partners, I’d have to keep my mouth shut because there really wasn’t anything about Ben that was negative – apart from wanting a LOT of sex – but that only annoyed me when I was tired! Ben was really the epitome of the saying "only the good die young." He was only 42 and he was a kind and loving man – a fantastic partner and a great father to our two daughters. We were told we’d have three-six precious months with him, but instead, he was dead within four weeks. When my husband Ben was diagnosed with an aggressive stage four cancer, it felt like my life had imploded.
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